Best thing in life for introvert like me? Solitude and blessings

Being alone and doing things in my own solitude...has been almost a 3 years routine for me. Hence my brain is upside down at times...can't really differentiate between hallucinations or imaginations or fantasy..or if it's real. tried astral projection on a friend...sometimes accurate, sometimes there's doubt. but i did manage to see. well well...i got lots of blessings. one of it is a divine blessings. i see stars. the feeling is much better than if u take weed or have orgasm...haha... but who's that...i've no idea. probably some long lost friends or spirits that have been following me for a few past lives. a halfway failed scholar...one dat died at meditation...this life am seeking to continue and complete...if it takes my whole life again..so be it! i just need some solitude again. arranging to put down everything, settle most of the damn things and then rent out my stall business so i can do my other stuffs and hopefully...just once...go to places that i wanted to go. :)