A reluctant lightworker waking up to reality

The shift.
It came on the day I realized I've to face the buried deep down past traumatic experience I've went through alone on that evening. Where forms are no longer forms, and just some distant memories, cut short of not letting anyone know in details, what actually transpired. This thing face me and I've to either confront it or let go of it. By letting go, it mean cutting off a piece of the demonic influence in me from further attachment. I chose to shed the blood and tears. A part of me is not a part of me anymore. Everything was blanketed and buried, even those that I wanted and needed were no longer available. And I was reborn, but not on an overall basis. This part is a hole that do not make me whole, and I simply deem this part as a big hole with a gap that spell imperfection and black dots in my life. No matter how and what I do to it, it mutates and sort of manifest to other forms in my life. Those forms that which I can't hide forever nor would it get lesser. But again, it got buried deep down and blanketed again, until sometimes I don't know which personality is mine.

Until one fine day, the emotion and waves come again , for me to remember it again when I feel that I should be worthy of love and for love. And it stopped me. NO MORE SUFFERINGS. Void that part. And so I watched, and watched all the episode that plays against the backdrop of my life like some sort of drama. It simply let me know that what I want and what I need, is simply not this form anymore. I need to untie lesser strings to myself and not create bondage that tie my fears and reluctance to accept further pain. I saw upon the sky and the stars in the horizon, I checked and checked again the configuration, it should be NOW. The seed is there and I should not activate it. If I do, the outcome will be something I do not want to go through readily. Let me be just in the dream, where in that dream it was and will be perfect, a world I created where I can be with anyone and anything that I wanted. And this, will save a lot of trouble and let me be focus on reality while my private world is for me to play.

So what if every waking time for me is indeed a coma, while in coma is where the real me stands? My higher self will have to answer me this then. If indeed it is, why did you put me in this without my permission? Why do you let me do something and feel something that is not meant for this waking hour? I want to create a different world now, and am going to sit you down while you listen to my instruction, as per my manifestation and as per my conscious awakening. I want to get out of this world and re-create my world. And with this am pumping in all new belief systems back to you and stop the damage that had  been done throughout this 3 decades. I will make myself lighter and recreate the cells in the body so that I can hold more light. And recreate new perceptions, new perspectives, new me and new world.

Giving up
Some thing which I do not chase upon the feeling does not mean I am not choosing right. I am just thinking of greater good on an overall basis. But the aloofness is killing another part of me. To advance, or to retreat, or to just brush it off as a mere illusion, is a signal of what I am looking for, and what I have might not be what I thought I wanted, until another sign came and show me right in the face, that indeed what I wanted is not in this form. It is in that form. So at the end, I am best to let go of forms for it changes. Let go because change is the only constant. What I gave up today, will be that space I needed to fill in more, as it simply means it is something that no longer serves me good. And with the new space, I can use it for my higher advancement. However, a part of me is reluctant to give up on those that I know I needed to, and you ... you are my agent of change as well as my agent of giving up. For you just let me know what are choices, and how I can consciously choose to put you into that black hole of mine to stop the sufferings.

New Reality
Life , without meaning, is something that I DO wish to end prematurely at any time if given the chance to do so without any repercussion. Simply because, I do not want to have that imperfect episode that keep replaying as it like when I am not on my guard. But I can't, and I have a contract of life in my blueprint that I will have to accept, eventually. And this life time is the time I have to start redeeming myself and honor the promise with my protector to do the works. There's no better time than now, and the path is laid out perfectly. No matter what happens, in the end I will still walk upon the continent, and I will do it in a way I am most comfortable in, and in ways I know, as I trust you've put me in places right for the cause to happen. And yes, I have put in new meaning to life..my life, that is not for my only sole purpose. The meaning of my life....is to live it helping and influencing people on a mass scale to higher consciousness and turn it into benefits for humanity. That is one big vague thing, but it's already in books what's the baby steps that am going to do. In this awakening hour, strategies and game play is what am still learning, for in my own world that I was in , it was and will always be perfect. 

Love energy for 2012

Year 2011 is coming to an end and I am looking forward to 2012. This year is quite an eventful year, be it on the career part for me or personal part. I am definitely looking forward to 2012, simply because it is going to be a year of change. I am also waiting eagerly for GE to exercise that voting right. It is not the country that I do not love, it is merely an exercise that I feel I should partake every time because of the power it can bring and the liberation it could do to change the lives of many. Most do not see what I see in politics and law making in the country as these might not be their cup of tea. But I merely see it as something that can affect a lot of people lives whether you like it or not. And what the best I can do is just going to the voting booth and make a difference .It might not be a big thing, but the sense of doing it makes it good to feel.

Coming up to 2012, I guess it will be another eventful year. Much more so if you are awaken to the energies it will bring. As the clock ticks and the alignment of the planets are moving, we are still at the healing stage at the last sign of the "houses". (I will omit all astrology language and try to write a more decent post :P ) Many people will go through a renewal of some kind, be it on the lower level or a higher level. You will definitely lose a lot of things you once treasured, even some belief systems that you hold on to , your perspectives and your senses that no longer serve you the purpose. Even people, relationships and such that are a baggage to you, will be slowly but surely pulled away from you. Don't ask how, but the universe indeed have a good way to do it for you. However, you will not "suffer" more than you can take at your level, just enough for the essential lesson that you need for your soul growth.

Love energy taking the front
As how one of my dearest enlightened friend put it, love energies are not confined only to the lovey dovey kind of love in relationships only. Love is love when it is put upon unconditionally to every living beings including animals. It will serve more of its purpose if put unconditionally to even people who can't repay you or you not expecting any kind of rewards. Love is what make it works if you put in unconditionally with passion as well. The energy is of pure white light and it will definitely wash your negativity out, bring you a new sense of belonging, make you compassionate and give you many other miracles.

The first step you need to do is to really just open up your heart and mind, to remove all the past hurt and embrace healing, and love yourself first. This first step is very important simply because if you do not love yourself, you will never recognize true love when it come knocking at your door. Love of yourself being equal to loving your Maker, simply because He made you with a purpose and you are not a "waste of product".
Everyone in the whole world serve a purpose in life. No matter how small or insignificant you think, you are actually making a difference everyday, even to your own family and friends.    


Loving yourself does not equal to the point of narcissistic or ego centrism. Ego is a big illusion that many people falls trap on. No one is going to escape this as long as we are breathing. However, moderation and balance is a must. Wisdom from experience will guide you, however, the most we must try to achieve is to shed our ego. Whatever we do must come from love and the love of doing it, and the love of doing it knowing consciously that what we are doing and want to do will give the same love and results for the benefits of many. When we can serve on a level where it will benefit others on a bigger scale, ego no longer works. Ego are actually the downfall of many self right organizations, the cause of separations, the reasons for discrimination against colors, creed and religions,and the defeater of grand purposes. Only love can conquer all these obstacles stemming from Ego.

2012, the world is at a healing stage. You will see before your eyes collapsing of unnecessary systems, issues that no longer serve the time of man and healing for many nations and the awakening of consciousness for many. Corrections for markets and pavement for more distribution of wealth in more fairness will slowly and surely start to take shape. Do not be fixed at this point but to move on with the changes, else it will be dramatic because you do not let go of the past, and still stays there. The only way to move to a higher dimension and level of consciousness is now embracing this love energy sweeping the whole universe come 2012.


Regards
Oscar

How to Change Your Destiny for 2012 with Vedic Astrology

There are times when we look upon the sky and wonder, how big is the universe? Why do we as human exists? What are the purpose of our existence? Are we born just to go through sufferings and pains? Are we born because we have some unfulfilled missions? Are we born just for the sake of it?

 

As the world evolve and the plane of human consciousness is being accessed at a faster rate than ever, people are starting to fall back to the spiritual plane to seek within themselves. We look for answers. We go back to the basics. We go back searching for our roots.

People has always been fascinated by psychics, seers, mystics, or anyone that have a claim that they are able to see the future. People want to know what is in stored for them, too eager to know the results, want to be prepared and a whole lots of reasons just to see or have a glimps of the future.

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Recently concluded Reiki Class

Due to the slowwwwwness of blogger to let me update the pictures, you can get your pictures from the Facebook of Soul Circles here. I am still editing some videos for the Reiki class, will put that up at www.thesoulcircles.net , however it will only be in mp3 format as video file will then be too big to put. Maybe a compilation of video captured on our Master doing her teaching, and if  you are connected in some way, you will find your way to us and be initiated by Master LC Seow.

Reiki need to be practiced after you are initiated. Nothing happens if after you got initiated, even years ago if  you do not use it. Use it since you are already attuned for life. This is what I am able to tell you to those who says that you don't feel much thing. And lastly, even if you are skeptical towards it, it still works. It is an intelligent system and it will still be here and survive so long, even if you don't believe. So open up your mind and heart, and keep learning.