My inner voice is a crappy random voice

Everyone have it. You don't know it's there. You know it's there. You doubt it. You believe it , and then you don't believe it. You know you have it...and then you don't acknowledge it. What is it? Where it come from? And then you totally don't want to have anything to do with it. Why?

Inner voice.

It talks to you. You talk to yourself. It's actually that funny first feeling. That tells you , You just have to do it. Trust me. I'd protect you. And yet some inner voice are not just like that. Do it, and it lets you down to another path. Just follow me. I am your guide. You will know the bigger picture later although you are part of the missing jigsaw puzzle.

You don't know if you made a wrong decision, or a decision that you might regret later. You just have to make it, face it, stare at it, it won't go away until you do so. You just have to. It bites if you don't. You can't put it on hold. You will be force to choose, between love and grander love, between shorter pain and longer pain, between duality of good and bad or the best out of which is worst. Inner voice. It guide you. The first voice. Uncontaminated thoughts that come later is not inner voice.

Everything that comes later is a struggle of how you justify the decision you made and how you want to handle it. That feeling that you might hurt someone. That feeling that you feel is best. That those feeling that you struggle to justify. People always say, make mistakes. Without which you won't grow and learn. The question here is, is it a mistake to begin with? You don't know. So inner voice helps. And the trust that the bigger picture will come later. Everything happen for a reason. And that reason is always for the better for change. But it's that first stupid feeling of things not being what it's suppose to be. That made me feel crappy. Things that falls, crumbling and tumbling down like a block of bricks you've so painstakingly put.

Inner voice...I'll guide you, and let you know what is it. Till then, let go before the Universe grab from you by force.

Till...I feel worthy of love. Till then, I will heal.

Sexual Addiction - What's in the mind so you know how to heal it - Part 2

While attempting to write this post the whole day, my mind was filled with sex. Oh gee...not like it's what you are thinking. Anyway, the info here might not be in it's totality and, based on what is channeled best and written is another story.

Sex addiction, is an addiction of pure lust and physical and these individuals often have huge commitment problems, and fear of becoming close to someone. A real sex addict, does not really enjoy sex, and instead it causes a chain reaction of shame, guilt, fear, depression and suicidal thoughts.

Most times, when a sex addict is married, they will not get off by having normal sex with their spouse, let alone, a sex addict is incapable of feeling true love, and therefore usually in most cases, relationships do not work out. A sex addict can however, learn how to become a decent person, and learn how to feel if they are thorough and honest with their recovery. Support from their loved ones will be of utmost importance and tolerance for a successful recovery as well.

There are many types of sexual addiction and different classifications, such as porn addiction and in most cases, there are added paraphernalia, which are abnormal and most time dangerous fetishes in which one cannot get off by anything else. It can also be accompanied by abuse of drug or substances and alcohol abuse.

There are also sex addiction that stems from trauma, such as sexual abuse in one's past. Some people develop sex addiction from learned behaviors of abuse, or even very traumatic incidences in childhood. This type can also become very dangerous, given the fact that there are many sex addicts who resort to get off by violence and hurting people, and are trapped in that habit, and equally, they may disassociate and constantly hurt themselves.

On another side, it is also entwined with personality disorders and chemical brain imbalances, where this mental disease is rare, but can begins at birth or early childhood. Causes are unknown, thus it is classified as a mental disease, and chemical brain imbalance. It can also result from other mental illnesses. Please note that addictions do not choose what or who you are, you can be a professional in some high flying job, or you can be plain Jane. Everyone is human and every human have an addiction of some sort.

There are many differing opinions on the religious side of sexual addiction, or in fact any other addictions as it is categorized as the same. However, I am really wondering about on the spirituality and energy side. This is because sex itself should be a pleasure between couples in relationships and individuals, and it is an art in Kamasutra and Tantric sex,and it is also tied with creativity and awakening of the Kundalini in energy modules.

On the spiritual side, all sex addicts have a powerful physical and spiritual healing ability to some extent. They are so captivated with the sexual and physical aspect that they then become intent on abusing such power. If learned properly, a sex addict can be a very powerful healer.

Most sex addicts are highly insecure or not confident. However, they appear highly charismatic, sociable, and have the ability to entice and seduce many people with their strong auras. Their partners will also become addicted to them. On another side, some are also extremely egoistic, self seeking, and like to be in the spot light. They tend to enjoy bragging about their problems.

Sex addiction has many symptoms, such as frequent injuries due to sexual behaviours, depression, anxiety and many other mental illnesses entwined with it, the famous feeling of guilt and shame, suicidal thoughts, black outs, anger problems and other emotional problems. When deprived of sex, a sex addict will act out dangerously.

On another side of this where I opined, I would also say that human, once have abundance of something, will not take it as a surprise anymore as they get "their devil side fed", and thus as a form of release, able to accept themselves and steer back to normality in real. Release it as it comes, feed the devil side and let it subside, and then re-enforce light when the mind is centered again and increase the light side against the dark side. Healing might be easier in this way. But the addict should also be able to help in ways of abstinence or taking back the control and power over their own dark side. Just like a simple example, if everyone can afford a luxury here, say Iphone, then Iphone is not something of a luxury anymore where you will have to sell a kidney for an Iphone (a girl in China doing so). It has become normal and when the desire of acquiring it is not strong, it can be under control. It is hard to satisfy a million desires, so why not try harder to control one desire that leads to the million desires. The effort put into controlling that one desire and able to come out of it is worth it.

So if we are to understand what sort of game or sex act or fetish that sex addicts are looking for and if it is a cry for something higher beneath their soul yearning, what could it be? Why do they do what they do in an addictive continuous manner? Imagine if we are a sex addict, and we are to walk into a big clubhouse with the only intention of getting sex, no inhibitions, no one judging or disrespecting you at all . And in these rooms, all kind of games are in play, which room would you knock on?

Room 1
Slave/Submissive sex - where you listen to your Master and do what they ask you to do. (Individual could be a powerful person in real life who have been giving orders to other people, and thus would choose this room for a change)
(astrology config- 6th or 12th house with saturn, rahu, ketu, mars, moon, pluto interplay) 

Room 2
Bondage/S&M - where you got tied up, whips and chains are your best friend and pain is pleasure (Individual could be yearning for a higher power that can release him/her from one controlling power for freedom, or instead of taking control all the time, someone to take control of him/her in real)
(astrology config-7th house with mars, ketu, saturn, venus, neptune interplay)

Room 3
Groupies/Orgy - group participants or several people playing together (Individual could be yearning for connections, reaching out, or is learning about sharing and no shame issue or is someone who have no trust issue, loves loosely, free spirit)
(astrology config - 7th or 8th house with mars, venus, jupiter, me, rahu, pluto interplay)

Room 4
Porn Stars/Videos/Internet - continuously engaging in watching videos, schedules revolved around picking ppl from the internet, chatting, watching video (Individual could be very lonely, not able to socialize, and yearning for companions or relationships without strings attached)
(astrology config-2nd or 3rd house with me,mars,ve, rahu interplay)

Room 5
Erotic massages/touch/senses - the need to be constantly touched by people (Individual could be yearning for higher source that can stimulate their senses, gives them inspirations, the need to feel true love instead of artificial love and yearning for real feeling instead of illusions)
(astrology config-1st, 7th, 8th house with ve, sun, saturn, rahu, moon interplay)

Room 6
Exhibitionist/Showing/Audience - the need to expose an intimate personal part of oneself to others (Individual could be yearning for attention and the need for others to appreciate them, take notice of them or need to shout out that they are capable of something)
(astrology config- 1st, 7th, 8th or 12th house with sun, moon, ve, mar,me, neptune, ketu interplay)

Room 7
Fetishes - all kind of fetishes you can think of, including human waste....(Individual could be yearning for the power to take control or take charge of a situation, ability to stomach risks and how worst things can be and able to come out of it, fearless, extremist, and in illusions without a true sense of belonging anywhere)
(astrology config-6th, 12th, 8th, 4th house with mars, saturn, ketu, neptune interplay)

(okay...i can't continue much on the rooms already although there are a lot of classifications out there...am exhausted thinking...)

Active signs where the houses reside is also important as how the individual will express this side of them, example if Gemini side is active, the individual is capable of handling many partners at the same time (Orgy room 3), or Capricorn, the individual will most likely prefer bondage or one to one depending on what other planets are interplaying, or Scorpio where the individual will try everything and find the most intense of sexual acts that can satisfy them, Pisces will most likely prefer role play and fantasies, unconventional type or sensual touches, Leo will most likely prefer one to one or being dominant or get dominant by someone else and slavery, etc.

Where ever you are at, cultural background can also contribute to how society looks at sexual addicts. It is better to be a sexual addict at a more liberal country rather than example, at here Malaysia where religion zealous people or government will try their hands at rehabilitation to you where they do not have any information or expertise or understanding of, or even politicizing on the issue as well (like how they try to rehab the lgbt community).  You have been fed spiritual values that are contradicting to your moral values and thus have spiritual warfare within yourself, when all you have is an addiction that you need to understand and how to take control of it with the help of professionals if this addiction is out of control and make your life difficult.

Of course am not encouraging you to be a sexual addict, but from my works, this addiction is real, and I do foresee in the next few years, more people will get into this addiction (it is already happening now and escort services are feeding the fetishes of stressful people for the money they can profit from) people need an outlet to confide, to get help, and with life here which is getting more stressful, less connection with real people (on the internet hiding behind chat rooms all the time without real communication) , all these add up and can spin you to this addiction faster than ever before. It's very addictive and if everyone is judging and try to be a saint when they don't understand this addiction,  it will be more difficult to handle when it happens to you or your closed ones.

Anyway, I opined,  the best way to this addiction is first, admitting that you have a problem, try abstinence and work things out with someone you trust and never be harsh on yourself. It is just like a disease, where you need time to heal, time to get well and a plan to get well.

Sexual Addiction and how it look like in the head? Intro post 1

This is going to be explicit and rated SX-18 by people who are not open minded...But it is not with the intention of making this a porny horny post. It's just a sharing on one of the small "research" I've been doing for some years, from the perspective and lens of astrology, energy and spirituality based on consultations I've accumulated in some years . And it's all going to be about sex. I might spread it to a few part if I can't finish and I'll try to minimize on astrology jargon and attempt this writing on a laymen terms.

Sexual addiction:
From wikipedia: "Sexual addiction (sometimes called sex addiction) is a popular model to explain hypersexuality—sexual urges, behaviors, or thoughts that appear extreme in frequency or feel out of one's control. Hypersexuality is typically associated with lowered sexual inhibitions. Alcohol and some drugs can affect a person's social and sexual inhibitions.

There are differences of opinion among sexologists, sociologists, psychologists and other specialists as to whether the phenomenon represents an actual addiction or even a psychological/psychiatric condition at all. Proponents of the sexual addiction model draw an analogy between hypersexuality and substance addiction or behavioral problems like gambling addiction, recommending 12-step and other addiction-based methods of treatment. Other explanatory models of hypersexuality include sexual compulsivity and sexual impulsivity.

Sexologists have not reached any consensus regarding whether sexual addiction exists or, if it does, how to describe the phenomenon. Some experts believe that sexual addiction is literally an addiction, directly analogous to alcohol and drug addictions. Other experts believe that sexual addiction is actually a form of obsessive compulsive disorder and refer to it as sexual compulsivity. Still other experts believe that sex addiction is itself a myth, a by-product of cultural and other influences. Some who have expressed doubts about the existence of sex addiction argue that the condition is instead a way of projecting social stigma onto patients."

We have heard of many type of addictions, but sexual addiction? It's kinda rare don't you think? This is because it is a taboo topic and rarely discussed. It is a stigma and professional help in the form of counseling is quite limited because the sufferer will be shy at most  to confide for professional help. The sufferer also do not deem it as a dis-ease or an inconvenience until it really inconvenience every aspect of life. Example, insatiable desire to engage in sexual encounters or relationships even thou you have or do not have one. Or, when you suddenly feel like stopping your ways , you become emotionless and sexless.

Frequent syndrome of sexual addiction: (from other source)

• Frequently engaging in more sex and with more partners than intended.
• Being preoccupied with or persistently craving sex; wanting to cut down and unsuccessfully attempting to limit sexual activity.
• Thinking of sex to the detriment of other activities or continually engaging in excessive sexual practices despite a desire to stop.
• Spending considerable time in activities related to sex, such as cruising for partners or spending hours online visiting pornographic Web sites.
• Neglecting obligations such as work, school or family in pursuit of sex.
• Continually engaging in the sexual behavior despite negative consequences, such as broken relationships or potential health risks.
• Escalating scope or frequency of sexual activity to achieve the desired effect, such as more frequent visits to prostitutes or more sex partners.
• Feeling irritable when unable to engage in the desired behavior.

You may have a sex addiction problem if you identify with three or more of the above criteria. More generally, sex addicts tend to organize their world around sex in the same way that cocaine addicts organize theirs around cocaine. Their goal in interacting with people and in social situations is obtaining sexual pleasure.

The severity of your addiction depends on the type, amount and frequency of the sexual behavior, and its harmful effects. Symptoms that a therapist will evaluate to determine severity include:

• Increasing guilt, remorse and suicidal thoughts
• Irritability when unable to engage in the desired behavior
• Pronounced mood swings or violence
• Heated arguments with loved ones about sexual behavior
• Severe financial problems
• Job loss
• Increased substance abuse or dependency
• Tolerance (escalating frequency of sexual behavior; engaging in more sex than intended — need for more sexual activity to achieve the desired effect)
• Preoccupation with or persistent craving for sex
• Unsuccessful attempts to limit sexual activity
• Continued involvement in excessive sexual practices despite desire to stop
• Time devoted to sex-related activities
• Engagement in sex to the detriment of valued activities and obligations such as work, school and family
• Continuation of the sexual behavior despite negative consequences 

Confession of a Perfectionist

Itsy bitsy teenie weenie dots, blackie darkish purplish yellowish stains, argh...dirty, slimey, smelly, bluey spots...warrrgh! Narh...am not perfect am not, am just a perfectionist. Who want to perfect the art of perfection, precision and accuracy, beauty and neatness, dang!!! If all these fails, am tearing and toring all down, build and rebuild, write and rewrite and go to the extreme of pulling everything down. Crumble, here you go! Arh...rebuild and rewrite with perfection. Not a single dot. But hey...what's this??!! A DOT!! nooo...biaatch..u stick, don't u? I  need that Jip! Hand sanitizer is my best friend. Binoculars are my next. What bout magnifying glass? Dude that's so old school.

Perfect is not a destination, it's just an obsession. An obsession that either makes you so good at what you are doing, or make it worst that you can't move on and down with tiny details that does not matter. But what happens when your LIFE itself, you think it's not perfect? Live on, throw your obsession out. It's not meant to be perfect, it's only the state of mind. It's that easily said but hard to do when you are obsessed with how dirty it is.

The Universe will provide........!! There are always reasons something happen and it's all for the good...! Tell that to a perfectionist and they will look at you sideway and start doubting. What the fish you just said?? It's suppose to be like this and this and this u know? Geee...give up. Roll on your bed and send them white flowers. They love white. Without the torns. The dirt. And it's neutral. You know...those things? *scratch my skin, it's not this colur*

Oh man...chill. Your Virgo child sucks. 

Angel Lucifer - The Light Bearer

 From Wikipedia:
"Traditionally, Lucifer is a name that in English generally refers to the Devil or Satan, especially in reference to his status as a fallen angel.
In Latin, from which the English word is derived, Lucifer (as a noun) means "light-bearer" (from the words lucem ferre). It was the name given to the Morning Star, i.e. the planet Venus when seen at dawn.
Use of the name "Lucifer" for the Devil stems from applying to the Devil what Isaiah 14:3–20 says of a king of Babylon whom it calls Helel (הֵילֵל, Shining One), a Hebrew word that refers to the Day Star or Morning Star.This association developed in Early Christianity, in the 2nd or 3rd century.
In 2 Peter 1:19 and elsewhere, the same Latin word lucifer is used to refer to the Morning Star, with no relation to the Devil. In Revelation 22:16, Jesus himself is called the Morning Star but not "Lucifer", even in Latin (Vulgata (stella splendida matutina)."

If it's true in relation, Morning Star, Lucifer, and Devil/Satan is the same, while Venus in astrology is the planet that gives humanity the ability to  love, wealth, materialism and all beauty in any forms and illusions of sexual instincts and pursuits. What in general means, if these are the things that you are looking for, and Venus is not debilitated, you will have all these in your life with ease. However, on the other side, spiritual astrology will tell you that this can be the downfall of your life and when it fell, you will be guided into spirituality. What a nuisance, to have one foot here at the materialistic world, and another at that spiritual world. Right? No? Tell me it's not and I'll tell you how from endless before time, this is the only struggle of humanity. A thin line between the duality of the world, good, bad, hell, heaven, opposite poles. Blah. It's that thin fine line before insanity and sane. Which reality are you in? Are you really at this world anyway?

Life after death. How do you know if you are actually just dead here at life and your real life is actually after death? Well, something to ponder on right? However, why do you want to keep yourself , always on check if you are goooood...or baddddd? Why do you want to keep yourself at the other poles when everyone right now is struggling to find the center point? Where loving a soul is better than loving the physical outlook empty shells only. Thus, these are what makes human suffer. The greed and craving to always choose the easy ways, the prestige, the wealth etc. The inability to enjoy true life and real meaning. The selfishness to self, family and surrounding people. Why do you want to grasp so hard? Create that space now.

And thus, the great fallen angel Lucifer, is actually not a fallen angel. He is just what you put into translation and transcription for people as a fable , a story to believe in , that He is the fallen angel. I say He is great because he took upon the task himself and play his role so well in giving humanity a choice. To choose. Between light and darkness. If there is no Lucifer to show you what is darkness and how ugly it is when the illusion is broken, do you think you will know what is light? No, you don't. And as the time goes by, when more and more people are able to recognize the light, there will be no more need for Lucifer to suffer as well. He will be in the light with everyone, but until this mission is accomplished, he is still taking care of his role so well from countless eons at the dark side. Until everyone is saved, He will be there to make you understand what is darkness.

To change your ways and to get a second chance before you are trapped in your own illusions. When it's all going nowhere and it's the end of your journey, without repents, your soul will be cleansed and it'll be a tremendous task because that's how deep and painful cleansing in Hell is. Do not thread onto His path, because it is total madness, just to show you it's not worth it. If all of us goes to the light, his task is accomplished and we should also be grateful to Him, the Morning Star that greet us when we found our enlightenment. May He get light and love too.  

Healing of the Inner Child

When we say or talk about Inner Child, is it really what we are truly referring to? The child within you? Is it just an illusion? Or is it just a convenient way to replace a psychological term? 

Inner Child to me is when your biological age and condition and environment does not get aligned with your True Self. You have been growing and growing and yet, you left a part of you died along the way. Not because that it is suppose to die, but you suppress it and not letting it grow together with you.

Hence when something happen, you fall back to your inner child but yet, your child do not know how or what to do in order to protect you. This is because you never let it grow up with you in the first place. However, it is also the most comforting and protective side as you fall to it because of the innocence and child like pure qualities that was what and who you are at the first place. No worries, no trust issues, no fear, until...you get all these from the materialistic world as you grow up.

How do you then, want to heal your inner child? Where do you search? What do you do? How do you check if there's anything that's not yet healed if there's any?

The Inner Child refers to your emotional body. Carl Jung called it the 'Divine Child'. Emmet Fox called it the 'Wonder Child'. Charles Whitfield called it the 'Child Within'. Some psychotherapists call it the 'True Self'. Our personalities emerge as a result of our genetic code, DNA, or inherited characteristics, and the environment in which we experience. Childhood is dictated by those who raise us and often causes scars that will take years to heal. For the most part, our issues go back to childhood and what impacted on our emotional and physical bodies at that time. The inner child remains with us all of our lives. We are all children at heart, innocently searching for our meaning in life.

Inner Child Types (a few variant)

The Playful Child
That self that is naturally playful, creative, spontaneous and fun loving child. This self longs to play. Many of us have forgotten how to do this without guilt or anxiety that as adults we must be doing something that is worthwhile.

The Spoiled Child
That part of us wants what they want and they want it now, and if they don't get what they want, they throw temper tantrums.

The Neglected Child
The child self that was always left alone without much nurturing and love. They don't believe they are lovable or worthwhile. They don't know how to love. They are depressed and want to cry.

The Abandoned Child
This child self has been left in some way like divorce or adoption or just left because the parents were kept busy working. They are always fearful that they will be abandoned again and again. This part of the self is starving for extra attention and reassurance that they are safe and okay. This self is very lonely.

The Fearful Child
This part has been overly criticized when they were small. Now they are anxious and are in panic much of the time. They need lots of encouragement and positive affirmations.

The Unbonded Child
This Inner Child never learns to be close to anyone. They are isolated. Intimacy feels alien and scary. Trust is a basic issue.

The Discounted Child
This is a part of the self that was ignored and treated as though they did not exist. They don't believe in themselves and need lots of love to assist and support them.

The Spiritual Child
This part of the self searches for answers from higher realms. 

The final result of healing the Inner Child - is balance within Oneself and being able to give and receive LOVE.

Why is healing of the inner child important? In a way, it frees you from bondages. You will have a safe space to fall, to throw tantrums, to let out your frustation, to get child like qualities without bondages from discrimination, prejudgments and  etc. You are free from fear, the fear of trying, you let your inner child guide you, to ask, and ask without fear. You can shout , you can beg like a child to get what you wanted in life without other kind of thoughts that pull you back down again. You get a new rebirth. Reborn. Again. 

You explore and see the world again, with a curiosity like a child. But you will have to heal it first so that it is aligned with your heart creation. Your desires. You have neglected it a long time, that you forgot how to ask like a child, how to be happy, you've forgotten true love, you have an absence and lack of love, and thus, you will need to feed your Inner Child with love again. Bring the gap closer, and tell yourself that. Let it come out and play. The stage is yours.
 

How to do it?

If you are not attuned with any healing energy modules, the works is less intense and it takes a longer time. But the most easiest will be doing some meditation, get down dirty with nature, bare your feet and walk on the beach, try something new and you never know you would do it, go traveling, explore all and everything possible that makes you happy. Challenge yourself to do the unthinkable. 

Whatever it is, try it without reservations. Revisit your childhood, forgive every stage, every year, every people, and move on. Let it all out, shout if you have to, let the negative energies out and transfer back to the universe. Example, throw all the clutters and stuffs you don't need, or go to the beach and throw rocks out to the sea with visualization of throwing out all the anger, disappointment etc transfered to the rock and shout it out. Let your inner child come out and play, as you heal it with love, it will get closer to you and guide you with much love and pure energies.

Emotional cleansing in general

What is emotional cleansing? Many energy healers might lump sum this as an understanding of clearing out any negative emotions that does not serve the highest good or purpose of our true self. Many would also bring together a whole lump sum of emotional tools to clearly bath away a client or their own emotional cleansing routine. However, how many of these are really effective? The most effective would probably be a temporary relief, where you bath in splendid colours, you clear the auras, you clear this and that and bring in the light. But it is only temporary measurement. How many would have slipped back to the same emotional state after some time?

In order to clearly clear out these negative energies, you have to clear from the root cause. What are the meanings of these emotions that you have put or intended them to be? Example, happiness to person A is not the same as it is to B. So what are the meanings? You will have to find out. It's just the beginning of finding out the root cause and the belief systems of a person. How does these emotions come in? Where do they come from? Why do they keep coming back?

If you are you whom is created from a blue print of the Higher Source, clearly these emotions are also given to you to protect you, no matter in our dualism world, what you term as positive or negative, however positive or negative it is, it is clearly a part of you. Why do they keep coming back no matter how you try to control or suppress it?

You will need to understand what is a conditioned feeling and what is a true feeling. A conditioned feeling is shaped out of environment, experience and the reality that you are in. A true feeling is what usually without suppression, calculated move or something felt from your Higher Self. Example, from childhood time, you might go through a very difficult time in expressing yourself. It could stem from past life traumas carry on here and you try to suppress it , which means keep it buried deep down and the only way for you to seal this feeling off is to keep yourself from talking. You might stammer or you might have speech block, in order to keep yourself safe from the pressure of expressing yourself, using this method to seal things off. 

In the long run, when you have learned so well to seal the feelings off, these become a conditioned feeling and not your true feeling. You learned how to build a protective wall, a mask, a shield, a block, or a mental block or whatever it is that no one knows, deep down. And when along the way, you got triggered by some situations, interactions or relationships, and in these situations or environment you draw the meaning of the conditions to the deep down buried feelings that you have sealed off, you fell back to where you came from. Example depression. The pattern keep repeating, when you fell, the most convenient way is to replace it with say depression/unhappiness/suicidal thoughts etc. Which is because you have kept it conveniently deep down for you to draw on, that it keep you safe in the escape route, that it had become natural.

Same goes with situation/environment, you fell back to the same situation/concept of an event in a different form, yet you conveniently draw back the meaning to it and you goes back to feeling the same thing over and over again. Hence that is what I would say, "you never learn".  These conditions can stem from a lifetime of belief systems input to you by anyone and everyone in your life. You asked for the answers, they gave you, you believe it to be the only way, you put it in your chest, and then you draw it out when you face the same thing, and next thing you know, that's the only way you associate those negative emotions with whenever you face the same situation again. You are trapped in the same pattern over and over.

Hence that is why, when we do energy works, it's not a one time two time thing that once you did, it gets better. It is a series of consultations, assessments, sussing, and finding out the root cause, replace belief systems with newer energies, change meaning and associations,keep drawing buried emotions and replace it with a set of new emotions/energies, and whenever these steps of healing are done, you or the client will have all sort of emotions coming to the surface and experience them again until they fade away. You will have to acknowledge these feelings exist, it's time to let them go and seal them off again. They can make a comeback, depending how strong willed are you to change the association, but at most through energy works, it helps to draw them out faster and release it back to the universe. You may cry, you may feel depressed again and again, you may release it in the form of anger, or even, be releasing it in the form of sexual energy etc, but it will get lesser and lesser and that is a form of cleansing and removal.

Cutting cords, links, hooks, ties, bonds and connections from past events, people, relationships and feelings are of utmost important. And when the healer have done the healing, it is also important to severe the energetic karmic link between the healer and the client. It's a series of these, cleansing, repairing the auric field etc, and the most important person is the one being heal. The mental state of the client have to be aligned with what you are doing and is willing to change and put in the positive thoughts. Thus mutual understanding is very important here.

Each individual needs will be different and the level of healing they require is also different. Of course the intelligent energy and the Masters will be able to correct and oversee the process and give the healing for their highest good at the ethereal level. However, if you can understand and check where these causes are, you will be able to intent more precisely and have faster result in terms of being able to educate your client and give them the info they need so that they can work on it together with you. 

So what good is emotional cleansing? The most important thing an emotional cleansing can give you is to move on from bad experience or traumatic issue. It gathers back a part of your spirit that is attached to that emotion/situation/environment etc and recollect back a part of your soul to your Higher Self so that you will be wholesome again. An emotional cleansing can also help you to close a chapter of your life that is no longer doing you any good by replaying the emotions inside you over and over again and make your life redundant. It helps tremendously in finding back yourself, loving yourself, forgive yourself and simply embrace love, joy and happiness again. You stop karmic links and unnecessary burdens. And lastly, your own perspective change and lessons learned.

Recently concluded class for Reiki Level 1 2012 on 18th March 2012

 

The recently concluded Reiki Level 1 class/workshop was awesome. Simply awesome because Master Kon Khen Kong (Reiki Tarot Master as well) who had been there helping to translate the course for the Mandarin participants, managed to capture some good photos on the energy waves of Reiki. This is because energy is hard to see with naked eyes, hence through cameras/videos only can you capture the moment. Awesome! Am so obsessed now with the pictures, because I love to see stuffs like this on pictures and I won't stop staring at it for a long long time. 

These orbs are not there in such a co-incidence timing. These orbs could be and should be Reiki ascended masters or guardian angels of this universal life force energy , descending to make sure the attunement process is protected and it is a sacred moment for the participants. 

Some feedback from the participants are, some of them feel cold, some of them feel a lift off their bodily aches, some feel like bursting into laughter, and some feel a tinge of warmness. Whatever it is, changes happen. And they are now set off to a new discovery about themselves and hopefully, they will be able to understand energy works further and be able to create new realities for themselves. 

Some tried to ask if there's any special message after the attunement. There are some messages for certain participants, but these batch are mostly  affected in areas that include stress, relationships and financial matters. I only sensed three skeptics, but these three skeptics are sporting enough to try.With this I thank you for giving yourself and these energy works stuffs a chance to serve your highest good. If I see you again for level 2, I will definitely reveal more if there are more messages. However, the most important first step is to do the cleansing first. And let your mind be more clear. Then you will be able to understand what message I was saying to you during the attunement.

For more pictures, please go to www.facebook.com/SoulCircles. It's all there. 

For our next course, it will be annouce soon. Direct all enquiries to o_scarlai@yahoo.com. And check out www.thesoulcircles.net for more information and free downloads at the library for your own usage. 

I will wait for you!

Regards

Oscar

First glance to make spot on prediction for vedic astrology chart

Dear visitors,
Many of you would have visited my site based on the utmost urgent keywords you typed in search of astrology predictions. Some of you would have your own chart ready because of doing some self study. For those of you who don't have it, it's high time you get one printed out using free software that are abound on the internet. This is because when I put in stuffs like this, you will need to refer back to your own chart to verify.
Today I am in the urge to help in giving you some first glance prediction of your chart based on all the keywords that was searched on.

First glance prediction to me is when you open your birth chart, you will be able to quickly spot all the urgent issues in the chart that need to be tackled. You will then know whether you should need help or you will get to understand faster what's the problem that's on hand.

So let's just say you have not met the person, or the person is you. Great. Now get on your chart and look at the chart on the whole. All the twelve houses at one glance. Note:

a) Which houses have the most planets in that one particular house? Rule of thumb, more than 3 and above is consider a lot or clustered.

b) What house does that present in your areas? Example house of romance, full of planets, especially conflicting planets.

c) What are the rajayogas present? Check : Ruler of house 1,4,7,10 interplaying with ruler of house 1,5 and 9

d) Any transitting Saturn at natal moon and at lagna?

e) Any transitting or Natal Saturn and Moon sitting together with natal Ketu? 

 

Exceptions of ketu in house 

1. spiritual person / self doubt /self depreciating
2. money mismanagement / love to utter foul language
3. documentations problems/rude communication
4. long term unhappiness/never satisfied/no motherly love to/from
5. destructive behaviour in romance esp addiction to love for love
6. hardship from lower servants including pets, and loss of job
7. marriage problem / partnership in biz prob
8. accidents
9. father death with native not able to meet for one last time / don't believe in                            religion
10. road to being a millionaire
11. poisonous friends
12. hospitalisation and mental deranged / black negative force if saturn is retrogade

If you find these consistent in your chart from the above points, then you need to look further into the areas and how it will effect you. Sometimes these issues will manifest through your body/physical side.

Check :
Body parts according to the houses keywords and compare to your own body. Any signs of changes with moles/birthmarks? Sun+Mer or Sun+ke or Ma+Ke, Ma+Me combinations plus either Ke or Ma with Sun+Me will give you surgery marks. Don't have yet? Check the transit and your dasha bukti. Plus if Sade Sati is in from no (d) above, then be extra careful if you have these signs. You will need to do a body checkup and also be prepared for some surgery that will leave the marks for you.

Next up when am free, fun parts with medical astrology and how to see how tall or how fat/slim or the physical appearance of a person is before you even  met him/her at one glance from the chart. 

Food delivery to the homeless with Kechara Soup Kitchen

Who would have thought that in such a vibrant town, in another dark side of the city, there will be so many homeless people roaming the street after most businesses are closed? Homeless? What? Not surprising actually. If you go down to the street and look for them, with eyes wide open and not oblivious to your usual surrounding ie keeping a straight eyes while driving, you will see them. A lot.

While Kechara Soup Kitchen is just feeding a weekly 650 packets on their rounds and catering to about 200 people on a daily basis at their soup kitchen center, there are other soup kitchens who are also doing the deliveries and feeding. There are many reasons why someone can become a homeless. We are not there to judge, however, it is best you come down to the street with us and experience it first hand. If your heart is not open at the first round, come for the 2nd, and the 3rd, and the 4th and the 5th. You will then start to understand.

Any kind of people can step as close to be a homeless in a split second. You will have to come for the briefing and do the delivery first hand and you will then know it's not just drug addicts or the mentally challenged that ended up on the street. There are indeed poverty, with people doing their works as usual, barely making it from their salary , and have to depend on free food given out from charity organisations that includes churches and mosques as well. Another example, a friend was following for a delivery round and after a tiring night, the friend squat down on the street and start to have a smoke. I look at her and .. hey...if I take off your shirt, you are just the same. So you see, we are all just the same. It's just the shirt that makes a difference. When I say that, I don't mean to embarrass the friend, for this friend knows pretty well what am trying to say. And we learned that we should be grateful to be able to be the giving hands, for tonight.

What keeps me going and coming back to this cause is not because of doing this for fun, although am still trying to do this in a fun way. What am saying is when we do stuffs like this, ie charity, beside team work, there must not be any ego. Not one hand is better than the other. It is the collective effort that makes it or break it. Towards a common goal and together doing it in any way we think we can to help the less fortunate.

Secondly, there was a round where after giving the food to the people, I went into a fast food outlet for the bathroom. I saw a client sitting at a corner in the fast food outlet. It was very comfortable with the air cond at full blast and it was actually drizzling outside, making it more colder. Seeing her just after her late night work, assuming this because of the attire she was wearing and the stuff she was carrying, she opened the pack of rice and it was a really slow gesture. She prayed on the food and was giving thanks. When I came out from the toilet, I saw another homeless, this time taking small bites on the biscuit that was in one of the delivery round, and each bite is savoured slowly and with eyes closed. I don't know what's in their mind, but that visual to me was so empowering and it touches me deep down that at that moment I feel like breaking up and cry because of all the sudden energies that came to me. All the things I ever learned and experienced was just summed up in that powerful visual. Gratitude, appreciation, kindness, compassionate, etc. EVERYTHING.

So with that empowering visual, it keeps me going. It keeps me want to do good, no matter alone or with others. Still thinking of ways to contribute more.

People, if you stumble upon this post, these are the things that I think is suitable for the homeless. You can also come up with your own initiatives as well.

1) Soap. You don't have to give a big bar, those small ones like from the hotel rooms are good enough. If you have connections or people in charge of hotels that you can talk to, maybe they can donate those used soap that hotel guests used but not all are used. They can cut off the layers to come out to the new layer and wrapped it up again and donate to the homeless. Or if you go to hotel, and have been collecting those soap/toiletries like toothbrush or shampoo that you haven't been using, give them up :)

2) Medicines for skin ailments or wounds

3) Used clothes ie shirt, t-shirts , etc that you don't need anymore but still in good condition

4) Biscuits, fruits, mineral water etc

5) Cash to KSK or any other organisation to continue their works

6) Towels/umbrellas/recycle  bags etc

7) Click or copy paste this url to your browser and join me and friends on this collective effort in contributing to charitable good deeds via facebook to KSK http://www.facebook.com/events/207466302685196/

All works in KSK are inspired by H.E Tsem Tulku Rinpoche and you can find him here 
You can also find him at his blog here
And last but not least,  you can also join KSK on facebook , here. 

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