Confession of a Perfectionist

Itsy bitsy teenie weenie dots, blackie darkish purplish yellowish stains, argh...dirty, slimey, smelly, bluey spots...warrrgh! Narh...am not perfect am not, am just a perfectionist. Who want to perfect the art of perfection, precision and accuracy, beauty and neatness, dang!!! If all these fails, am tearing and toring all down, build and rebuild, write and rewrite and go to the extreme of pulling everything down. Crumble, here you go! Arh...rebuild and rewrite with perfection. Not a single dot. But hey...what's this??!! A DOT!! nooo...biaatch..u stick, don't u? I  need that Jip! Hand sanitizer is my best friend. Binoculars are my next. What bout magnifying glass? Dude that's so old school.

Perfect is not a destination, it's just an obsession. An obsession that either makes you so good at what you are doing, or make it worst that you can't move on and down with tiny details that does not matter. But what happens when your LIFE itself, you think it's not perfect? Live on, throw your obsession out. It's not meant to be perfect, it's only the state of mind. It's that easily said but hard to do when you are obsessed with how dirty it is.

The Universe will provide........!! There are always reasons something happen and it's all for the good...! Tell that to a perfectionist and they will look at you sideway and start doubting. What the fish you just said?? It's suppose to be like this and this and this u know? Geee...give up. Roll on your bed and send them white flowers. They love white. Without the torns. The dirt. And it's neutral. You know...those things? *scratch my skin, it's not this colur*

Oh man...chill. Your Virgo child sucks. 

Angel Lucifer - The Light Bearer

 From Wikipedia:
"Traditionally, Lucifer is a name that in English generally refers to the Devil or Satan, especially in reference to his status as a fallen angel.
In Latin, from which the English word is derived, Lucifer (as a noun) means "light-bearer" (from the words lucem ferre). It was the name given to the Morning Star, i.e. the planet Venus when seen at dawn.
Use of the name "Lucifer" for the Devil stems from applying to the Devil what Isaiah 14:3–20 says of a king of Babylon whom it calls Helel (הֵילֵל, Shining One), a Hebrew word that refers to the Day Star or Morning Star.This association developed in Early Christianity, in the 2nd or 3rd century.
In 2 Peter 1:19 and elsewhere, the same Latin word lucifer is used to refer to the Morning Star, with no relation to the Devil. In Revelation 22:16, Jesus himself is called the Morning Star but not "Lucifer", even in Latin (Vulgata (stella splendida matutina)."

If it's true in relation, Morning Star, Lucifer, and Devil/Satan is the same, while Venus in astrology is the planet that gives humanity the ability to  love, wealth, materialism and all beauty in any forms and illusions of sexual instincts and pursuits. What in general means, if these are the things that you are looking for, and Venus is not debilitated, you will have all these in your life with ease. However, on the other side, spiritual astrology will tell you that this can be the downfall of your life and when it fell, you will be guided into spirituality. What a nuisance, to have one foot here at the materialistic world, and another at that spiritual world. Right? No? Tell me it's not and I'll tell you how from endless before time, this is the only struggle of humanity. A thin line between the duality of the world, good, bad, hell, heaven, opposite poles. Blah. It's that thin fine line before insanity and sane. Which reality are you in? Are you really at this world anyway?

Life after death. How do you know if you are actually just dead here at life and your real life is actually after death? Well, something to ponder on right? However, why do you want to keep yourself , always on check if you are goooood...or baddddd? Why do you want to keep yourself at the other poles when everyone right now is struggling to find the center point? Where loving a soul is better than loving the physical outlook empty shells only. Thus, these are what makes human suffer. The greed and craving to always choose the easy ways, the prestige, the wealth etc. The inability to enjoy true life and real meaning. The selfishness to self, family and surrounding people. Why do you want to grasp so hard? Create that space now.

And thus, the great fallen angel Lucifer, is actually not a fallen angel. He is just what you put into translation and transcription for people as a fable , a story to believe in , that He is the fallen angel. I say He is great because he took upon the task himself and play his role so well in giving humanity a choice. To choose. Between light and darkness. If there is no Lucifer to show you what is darkness and how ugly it is when the illusion is broken, do you think you will know what is light? No, you don't. And as the time goes by, when more and more people are able to recognize the light, there will be no more need for Lucifer to suffer as well. He will be in the light with everyone, but until this mission is accomplished, he is still taking care of his role so well from countless eons at the dark side. Until everyone is saved, He will be there to make you understand what is darkness.

To change your ways and to get a second chance before you are trapped in your own illusions. When it's all going nowhere and it's the end of your journey, without repents, your soul will be cleansed and it'll be a tremendous task because that's how deep and painful cleansing in Hell is. Do not thread onto His path, because it is total madness, just to show you it's not worth it. If all of us goes to the light, his task is accomplished and we should also be grateful to Him, the Morning Star that greet us when we found our enlightenment. May He get light and love too.  

Healing of the Inner Child

When we say or talk about Inner Child, is it really what we are truly referring to? The child within you? Is it just an illusion? Or is it just a convenient way to replace a psychological term? 

Inner Child to me is when your biological age and condition and environment does not get aligned with your True Self. You have been growing and growing and yet, you left a part of you died along the way. Not because that it is suppose to die, but you suppress it and not letting it grow together with you.

Hence when something happen, you fall back to your inner child but yet, your child do not know how or what to do in order to protect you. This is because you never let it grow up with you in the first place. However, it is also the most comforting and protective side as you fall to it because of the innocence and child like pure qualities that was what and who you are at the first place. No worries, no trust issues, no fear, until...you get all these from the materialistic world as you grow up.

How do you then, want to heal your inner child? Where do you search? What do you do? How do you check if there's anything that's not yet healed if there's any?

The Inner Child refers to your emotional body. Carl Jung called it the 'Divine Child'. Emmet Fox called it the 'Wonder Child'. Charles Whitfield called it the 'Child Within'. Some psychotherapists call it the 'True Self'. Our personalities emerge as a result of our genetic code, DNA, or inherited characteristics, and the environment in which we experience. Childhood is dictated by those who raise us and often causes scars that will take years to heal. For the most part, our issues go back to childhood and what impacted on our emotional and physical bodies at that time. The inner child remains with us all of our lives. We are all children at heart, innocently searching for our meaning in life.

Inner Child Types (a few variant)

The Playful Child
That self that is naturally playful, creative, spontaneous and fun loving child. This self longs to play. Many of us have forgotten how to do this without guilt or anxiety that as adults we must be doing something that is worthwhile.

The Spoiled Child
That part of us wants what they want and they want it now, and if they don't get what they want, they throw temper tantrums.

The Neglected Child
The child self that was always left alone without much nurturing and love. They don't believe they are lovable or worthwhile. They don't know how to love. They are depressed and want to cry.

The Abandoned Child
This child self has been left in some way like divorce or adoption or just left because the parents were kept busy working. They are always fearful that they will be abandoned again and again. This part of the self is starving for extra attention and reassurance that they are safe and okay. This self is very lonely.

The Fearful Child
This part has been overly criticized when they were small. Now they are anxious and are in panic much of the time. They need lots of encouragement and positive affirmations.

The Unbonded Child
This Inner Child never learns to be close to anyone. They are isolated. Intimacy feels alien and scary. Trust is a basic issue.

The Discounted Child
This is a part of the self that was ignored and treated as though they did not exist. They don't believe in themselves and need lots of love to assist and support them.

The Spiritual Child
This part of the self searches for answers from higher realms. 

The final result of healing the Inner Child - is balance within Oneself and being able to give and receive LOVE.

Why is healing of the inner child important? In a way, it frees you from bondages. You will have a safe space to fall, to throw tantrums, to let out your frustation, to get child like qualities without bondages from discrimination, prejudgments and  etc. You are free from fear, the fear of trying, you let your inner child guide you, to ask, and ask without fear. You can shout , you can beg like a child to get what you wanted in life without other kind of thoughts that pull you back down again. You get a new rebirth. Reborn. Again. 

You explore and see the world again, with a curiosity like a child. But you will have to heal it first so that it is aligned with your heart creation. Your desires. You have neglected it a long time, that you forgot how to ask like a child, how to be happy, you've forgotten true love, you have an absence and lack of love, and thus, you will need to feed your Inner Child with love again. Bring the gap closer, and tell yourself that. Let it come out and play. The stage is yours.
 

How to do it?

If you are not attuned with any healing energy modules, the works is less intense and it takes a longer time. But the most easiest will be doing some meditation, get down dirty with nature, bare your feet and walk on the beach, try something new and you never know you would do it, go traveling, explore all and everything possible that makes you happy. Challenge yourself to do the unthinkable. 

Whatever it is, try it without reservations. Revisit your childhood, forgive every stage, every year, every people, and move on. Let it all out, shout if you have to, let the negative energies out and transfer back to the universe. Example, throw all the clutters and stuffs you don't need, or go to the beach and throw rocks out to the sea with visualization of throwing out all the anger, disappointment etc transfered to the rock and shout it out. Let your inner child come out and play, as you heal it with love, it will get closer to you and guide you with much love and pure energies.

Emotional cleansing in general

What is emotional cleansing? Many energy healers might lump sum this as an understanding of clearing out any negative emotions that does not serve the highest good or purpose of our true self. Many would also bring together a whole lump sum of emotional tools to clearly bath away a client or their own emotional cleansing routine. However, how many of these are really effective? The most effective would probably be a temporary relief, where you bath in splendid colours, you clear the auras, you clear this and that and bring in the light. But it is only temporary measurement. How many would have slipped back to the same emotional state after some time?

In order to clearly clear out these negative energies, you have to clear from the root cause. What are the meanings of these emotions that you have put or intended them to be? Example, happiness to person A is not the same as it is to B. So what are the meanings? You will have to find out. It's just the beginning of finding out the root cause and the belief systems of a person. How does these emotions come in? Where do they come from? Why do they keep coming back?

If you are you whom is created from a blue print of the Higher Source, clearly these emotions are also given to you to protect you, no matter in our dualism world, what you term as positive or negative, however positive or negative it is, it is clearly a part of you. Why do they keep coming back no matter how you try to control or suppress it?

You will need to understand what is a conditioned feeling and what is a true feeling. A conditioned feeling is shaped out of environment, experience and the reality that you are in. A true feeling is what usually without suppression, calculated move or something felt from your Higher Self. Example, from childhood time, you might go through a very difficult time in expressing yourself. It could stem from past life traumas carry on here and you try to suppress it , which means keep it buried deep down and the only way for you to seal this feeling off is to keep yourself from talking. You might stammer or you might have speech block, in order to keep yourself safe from the pressure of expressing yourself, using this method to seal things off. 

In the long run, when you have learned so well to seal the feelings off, these become a conditioned feeling and not your true feeling. You learned how to build a protective wall, a mask, a shield, a block, or a mental block or whatever it is that no one knows, deep down. And when along the way, you got triggered by some situations, interactions or relationships, and in these situations or environment you draw the meaning of the conditions to the deep down buried feelings that you have sealed off, you fell back to where you came from. Example depression. The pattern keep repeating, when you fell, the most convenient way is to replace it with say depression/unhappiness/suicidal thoughts etc. Which is because you have kept it conveniently deep down for you to draw on, that it keep you safe in the escape route, that it had become natural.

Same goes with situation/environment, you fell back to the same situation/concept of an event in a different form, yet you conveniently draw back the meaning to it and you goes back to feeling the same thing over and over again. Hence that is what I would say, "you never learn".  These conditions can stem from a lifetime of belief systems input to you by anyone and everyone in your life. You asked for the answers, they gave you, you believe it to be the only way, you put it in your chest, and then you draw it out when you face the same thing, and next thing you know, that's the only way you associate those negative emotions with whenever you face the same situation again. You are trapped in the same pattern over and over.

Hence that is why, when we do energy works, it's not a one time two time thing that once you did, it gets better. It is a series of consultations, assessments, sussing, and finding out the root cause, replace belief systems with newer energies, change meaning and associations,keep drawing buried emotions and replace it with a set of new emotions/energies, and whenever these steps of healing are done, you or the client will have all sort of emotions coming to the surface and experience them again until they fade away. You will have to acknowledge these feelings exist, it's time to let them go and seal them off again. They can make a comeback, depending how strong willed are you to change the association, but at most through energy works, it helps to draw them out faster and release it back to the universe. You may cry, you may feel depressed again and again, you may release it in the form of anger, or even, be releasing it in the form of sexual energy etc, but it will get lesser and lesser and that is a form of cleansing and removal.

Cutting cords, links, hooks, ties, bonds and connections from past events, people, relationships and feelings are of utmost important. And when the healer have done the healing, it is also important to severe the energetic karmic link between the healer and the client. It's a series of these, cleansing, repairing the auric field etc, and the most important person is the one being heal. The mental state of the client have to be aligned with what you are doing and is willing to change and put in the positive thoughts. Thus mutual understanding is very important here.

Each individual needs will be different and the level of healing they require is also different. Of course the intelligent energy and the Masters will be able to correct and oversee the process and give the healing for their highest good at the ethereal level. However, if you can understand and check where these causes are, you will be able to intent more precisely and have faster result in terms of being able to educate your client and give them the info they need so that they can work on it together with you. 

So what good is emotional cleansing? The most important thing an emotional cleansing can give you is to move on from bad experience or traumatic issue. It gathers back a part of your spirit that is attached to that emotion/situation/environment etc and recollect back a part of your soul to your Higher Self so that you will be wholesome again. An emotional cleansing can also help you to close a chapter of your life that is no longer doing you any good by replaying the emotions inside you over and over again and make your life redundant. It helps tremendously in finding back yourself, loving yourself, forgive yourself and simply embrace love, joy and happiness again. You stop karmic links and unnecessary burdens. And lastly, your own perspective change and lessons learned.

Recently concluded class for Reiki Level 1 2012 on 18th March 2012

 

The recently concluded Reiki Level 1 class/workshop was awesome. Simply awesome because Master Kon Khen Kong (Reiki Tarot Master as well) who had been there helping to translate the course for the Mandarin participants, managed to capture some good photos on the energy waves of Reiki. This is because energy is hard to see with naked eyes, hence through cameras/videos only can you capture the moment. Awesome! Am so obsessed now with the pictures, because I love to see stuffs like this on pictures and I won't stop staring at it for a long long time. 

These orbs are not there in such a co-incidence timing. These orbs could be and should be Reiki ascended masters or guardian angels of this universal life force energy , descending to make sure the attunement process is protected and it is a sacred moment for the participants. 

Some feedback from the participants are, some of them feel cold, some of them feel a lift off their bodily aches, some feel like bursting into laughter, and some feel a tinge of warmness. Whatever it is, changes happen. And they are now set off to a new discovery about themselves and hopefully, they will be able to understand energy works further and be able to create new realities for themselves. 

Some tried to ask if there's any special message after the attunement. There are some messages for certain participants, but these batch are mostly  affected in areas that include stress, relationships and financial matters. I only sensed three skeptics, but these three skeptics are sporting enough to try.With this I thank you for giving yourself and these energy works stuffs a chance to serve your highest good. If I see you again for level 2, I will definitely reveal more if there are more messages. However, the most important first step is to do the cleansing first. And let your mind be more clear. Then you will be able to understand what message I was saying to you during the attunement.

For more pictures, please go to www.facebook.com/SoulCircles. It's all there. 

For our next course, it will be annouce soon. Direct all enquiries to o_scarlai@yahoo.com. And check out www.thesoulcircles.net for more information and free downloads at the library for your own usage. 

I will wait for you!

Regards

Oscar

First glance to make spot on prediction for vedic astrology chart

Dear visitors,
Many of you would have visited my site based on the utmost urgent keywords you typed in search of astrology predictions. Some of you would have your own chart ready because of doing some self study. For those of you who don't have it, it's high time you get one printed out using free software that are abound on the internet. This is because when I put in stuffs like this, you will need to refer back to your own chart to verify.
Today I am in the urge to help in giving you some first glance prediction of your chart based on all the keywords that was searched on.

First glance prediction to me is when you open your birth chart, you will be able to quickly spot all the urgent issues in the chart that need to be tackled. You will then know whether you should need help or you will get to understand faster what's the problem that's on hand.

So let's just say you have not met the person, or the person is you. Great. Now get on your chart and look at the chart on the whole. All the twelve houses at one glance. Note:

a) Which houses have the most planets in that one particular house? Rule of thumb, more than 3 and above is consider a lot or clustered.

b) What house does that present in your areas? Example house of romance, full of planets, especially conflicting planets.

c) What are the rajayogas present? Check : Ruler of house 1,4,7,10 interplaying with ruler of house 1,5 and 9

d) Any transitting Saturn at natal moon and at lagna?

e) Any transitting or Natal Saturn and Moon sitting together with natal Ketu? 

 

Exceptions of ketu in house 

1. spiritual person / self doubt /self depreciating
2. money mismanagement / love to utter foul language
3. documentations problems/rude communication
4. long term unhappiness/never satisfied/no motherly love to/from
5. destructive behaviour in romance esp addiction to love for love
6. hardship from lower servants including pets, and loss of job
7. marriage problem / partnership in biz prob
8. accidents
9. father death with native not able to meet for one last time / don't believe in                            religion
10. road to being a millionaire
11. poisonous friends
12. hospitalisation and mental deranged / black negative force if saturn is retrogade

If you find these consistent in your chart from the above points, then you need to look further into the areas and how it will effect you. Sometimes these issues will manifest through your body/physical side.

Check :
Body parts according to the houses keywords and compare to your own body. Any signs of changes with moles/birthmarks? Sun+Mer or Sun+ke or Ma+Ke, Ma+Me combinations plus either Ke or Ma with Sun+Me will give you surgery marks. Don't have yet? Check the transit and your dasha bukti. Plus if Sade Sati is in from no (d) above, then be extra careful if you have these signs. You will need to do a body checkup and also be prepared for some surgery that will leave the marks for you.

Next up when am free, fun parts with medical astrology and how to see how tall or how fat/slim or the physical appearance of a person is before you even  met him/her at one glance from the chart. 

Food delivery to the homeless with Kechara Soup Kitchen

Who would have thought that in such a vibrant town, in another dark side of the city, there will be so many homeless people roaming the street after most businesses are closed? Homeless? What? Not surprising actually. If you go down to the street and look for them, with eyes wide open and not oblivious to your usual surrounding ie keeping a straight eyes while driving, you will see them. A lot.

While Kechara Soup Kitchen is just feeding a weekly 650 packets on their rounds and catering to about 200 people on a daily basis at their soup kitchen center, there are other soup kitchens who are also doing the deliveries and feeding. There are many reasons why someone can become a homeless. We are not there to judge, however, it is best you come down to the street with us and experience it first hand. If your heart is not open at the first round, come for the 2nd, and the 3rd, and the 4th and the 5th. You will then start to understand.

Any kind of people can step as close to be a homeless in a split second. You will have to come for the briefing and do the delivery first hand and you will then know it's not just drug addicts or the mentally challenged that ended up on the street. There are indeed poverty, with people doing their works as usual, barely making it from their salary , and have to depend on free food given out from charity organisations that includes churches and mosques as well. Another example, a friend was following for a delivery round and after a tiring night, the friend squat down on the street and start to have a smoke. I look at her and .. hey...if I take off your shirt, you are just the same. So you see, we are all just the same. It's just the shirt that makes a difference. When I say that, I don't mean to embarrass the friend, for this friend knows pretty well what am trying to say. And we learned that we should be grateful to be able to be the giving hands, for tonight.

What keeps me going and coming back to this cause is not because of doing this for fun, although am still trying to do this in a fun way. What am saying is when we do stuffs like this, ie charity, beside team work, there must not be any ego. Not one hand is better than the other. It is the collective effort that makes it or break it. Towards a common goal and together doing it in any way we think we can to help the less fortunate.

Secondly, there was a round where after giving the food to the people, I went into a fast food outlet for the bathroom. I saw a client sitting at a corner in the fast food outlet. It was very comfortable with the air cond at full blast and it was actually drizzling outside, making it more colder. Seeing her just after her late night work, assuming this because of the attire she was wearing and the stuff she was carrying, she opened the pack of rice and it was a really slow gesture. She prayed on the food and was giving thanks. When I came out from the toilet, I saw another homeless, this time taking small bites on the biscuit that was in one of the delivery round, and each bite is savoured slowly and with eyes closed. I don't know what's in their mind, but that visual to me was so empowering and it touches me deep down that at that moment I feel like breaking up and cry because of all the sudden energies that came to me. All the things I ever learned and experienced was just summed up in that powerful visual. Gratitude, appreciation, kindness, compassionate, etc. EVERYTHING.

So with that empowering visual, it keeps me going. It keeps me want to do good, no matter alone or with others. Still thinking of ways to contribute more.

People, if you stumble upon this post, these are the things that I think is suitable for the homeless. You can also come up with your own initiatives as well.

1) Soap. You don't have to give a big bar, those small ones like from the hotel rooms are good enough. If you have connections or people in charge of hotels that you can talk to, maybe they can donate those used soap that hotel guests used but not all are used. They can cut off the layers to come out to the new layer and wrapped it up again and donate to the homeless. Or if you go to hotel, and have been collecting those soap/toiletries like toothbrush or shampoo that you haven't been using, give them up :)

2) Medicines for skin ailments or wounds

3) Used clothes ie shirt, t-shirts , etc that you don't need anymore but still in good condition

4) Biscuits, fruits, mineral water etc

5) Cash to KSK or any other organisation to continue their works

6) Towels/umbrellas/recycle  bags etc

7) Click or copy paste this url to your browser and join me and friends on this collective effort in contributing to charitable good deeds via facebook to KSK http://www.facebook.com/events/207466302685196/

All works in KSK are inspired by H.E Tsem Tulku Rinpoche and you can find him here 
You can also find him at his blog here
And last but not least,  you can also join KSK on facebook , here. 

Related blog post : Here

A reluctant lightworker waking up to reality

The shift.
It came on the day I realized I've to face the buried deep down past traumatic experience I've went through alone on that evening. Where forms are no longer forms, and just some distant memories, cut short of not letting anyone know in details, what actually transpired. This thing face me and I've to either confront it or let go of it. By letting go, it mean cutting off a piece of the demonic influence in me from further attachment. I chose to shed the blood and tears. A part of me is not a part of me anymore. Everything was blanketed and buried, even those that I wanted and needed were no longer available. And I was reborn, but not on an overall basis. This part is a hole that do not make me whole, and I simply deem this part as a big hole with a gap that spell imperfection and black dots in my life. No matter how and what I do to it, it mutates and sort of manifest to other forms in my life. Those forms that which I can't hide forever nor would it get lesser. But again, it got buried deep down and blanketed again, until sometimes I don't know which personality is mine.

Until one fine day, the emotion and waves come again , for me to remember it again when I feel that I should be worthy of love and for love. And it stopped me. NO MORE SUFFERINGS. Void that part. And so I watched, and watched all the episode that plays against the backdrop of my life like some sort of drama. It simply let me know that what I want and what I need, is simply not this form anymore. I need to untie lesser strings to myself and not create bondage that tie my fears and reluctance to accept further pain. I saw upon the sky and the stars in the horizon, I checked and checked again the configuration, it should be NOW. The seed is there and I should not activate it. If I do, the outcome will be something I do not want to go through readily. Let me be just in the dream, where in that dream it was and will be perfect, a world I created where I can be with anyone and anything that I wanted. And this, will save a lot of trouble and let me be focus on reality while my private world is for me to play.

So what if every waking time for me is indeed a coma, while in coma is where the real me stands? My higher self will have to answer me this then. If indeed it is, why did you put me in this without my permission? Why do you let me do something and feel something that is not meant for this waking hour? I want to create a different world now, and am going to sit you down while you listen to my instruction, as per my manifestation and as per my conscious awakening. I want to get out of this world and re-create my world. And with this am pumping in all new belief systems back to you and stop the damage that had  been done throughout this 3 decades. I will make myself lighter and recreate the cells in the body so that I can hold more light. And recreate new perceptions, new perspectives, new me and new world.

Giving up
Some thing which I do not chase upon the feeling does not mean I am not choosing right. I am just thinking of greater good on an overall basis. But the aloofness is killing another part of me. To advance, or to retreat, or to just brush it off as a mere illusion, is a signal of what I am looking for, and what I have might not be what I thought I wanted, until another sign came and show me right in the face, that indeed what I wanted is not in this form. It is in that form. So at the end, I am best to let go of forms for it changes. Let go because change is the only constant. What I gave up today, will be that space I needed to fill in more, as it simply means it is something that no longer serves me good. And with the new space, I can use it for my higher advancement. However, a part of me is reluctant to give up on those that I know I needed to, and you ... you are my agent of change as well as my agent of giving up. For you just let me know what are choices, and how I can consciously choose to put you into that black hole of mine to stop the sufferings.

New Reality
Life , without meaning, is something that I DO wish to end prematurely at any time if given the chance to do so without any repercussion. Simply because, I do not want to have that imperfect episode that keep replaying as it like when I am not on my guard. But I can't, and I have a contract of life in my blueprint that I will have to accept, eventually. And this life time is the time I have to start redeeming myself and honor the promise with my protector to do the works. There's no better time than now, and the path is laid out perfectly. No matter what happens, in the end I will still walk upon the continent, and I will do it in a way I am most comfortable in, and in ways I know, as I trust you've put me in places right for the cause to happen. And yes, I have put in new meaning to life..my life, that is not for my only sole purpose. The meaning of my life....is to live it helping and influencing people on a mass scale to higher consciousness and turn it into benefits for humanity. That is one big vague thing, but it's already in books what's the baby steps that am going to do. In this awakening hour, strategies and game play is what am still learning, for in my own world that I was in , it was and will always be perfect. 

Love energy for 2012

Year 2011 is coming to an end and I am looking forward to 2012. This year is quite an eventful year, be it on the career part for me or personal part. I am definitely looking forward to 2012, simply because it is going to be a year of change. I am also waiting eagerly for GE to exercise that voting right. It is not the country that I do not love, it is merely an exercise that I feel I should partake every time because of the power it can bring and the liberation it could do to change the lives of many. Most do not see what I see in politics and law making in the country as these might not be their cup of tea. But I merely see it as something that can affect a lot of people lives whether you like it or not. And what the best I can do is just going to the voting booth and make a difference .It might not be a big thing, but the sense of doing it makes it good to feel.

Coming up to 2012, I guess it will be another eventful year. Much more so if you are awaken to the energies it will bring. As the clock ticks and the alignment of the planets are moving, we are still at the healing stage at the last sign of the "houses". (I will omit all astrology language and try to write a more decent post :P ) Many people will go through a renewal of some kind, be it on the lower level or a higher level. You will definitely lose a lot of things you once treasured, even some belief systems that you hold on to , your perspectives and your senses that no longer serve you the purpose. Even people, relationships and such that are a baggage to you, will be slowly but surely pulled away from you. Don't ask how, but the universe indeed have a good way to do it for you. However, you will not "suffer" more than you can take at your level, just enough for the essential lesson that you need for your soul growth.

Love energy taking the front
As how one of my dearest enlightened friend put it, love energies are not confined only to the lovey dovey kind of love in relationships only. Love is love when it is put upon unconditionally to every living beings including animals. It will serve more of its purpose if put unconditionally to even people who can't repay you or you not expecting any kind of rewards. Love is what make it works if you put in unconditionally with passion as well. The energy is of pure white light and it will definitely wash your negativity out, bring you a new sense of belonging, make you compassionate and give you many other miracles.

The first step you need to do is to really just open up your heart and mind, to remove all the past hurt and embrace healing, and love yourself first. This first step is very important simply because if you do not love yourself, you will never recognize true love when it come knocking at your door. Love of yourself being equal to loving your Maker, simply because He made you with a purpose and you are not a "waste of product".
Everyone in the whole world serve a purpose in life. No matter how small or insignificant you think, you are actually making a difference everyday, even to your own family and friends.    


Loving yourself does not equal to the point of narcissistic or ego centrism. Ego is a big illusion that many people falls trap on. No one is going to escape this as long as we are breathing. However, moderation and balance is a must. Wisdom from experience will guide you, however, the most we must try to achieve is to shed our ego. Whatever we do must come from love and the love of doing it, and the love of doing it knowing consciously that what we are doing and want to do will give the same love and results for the benefits of many. When we can serve on a level where it will benefit others on a bigger scale, ego no longer works. Ego are actually the downfall of many self right organizations, the cause of separations, the reasons for discrimination against colors, creed and religions,and the defeater of grand purposes. Only love can conquer all these obstacles stemming from Ego.

2012, the world is at a healing stage. You will see before your eyes collapsing of unnecessary systems, issues that no longer serve the time of man and healing for many nations and the awakening of consciousness for many. Corrections for markets and pavement for more distribution of wealth in more fairness will slowly and surely start to take shape. Do not be fixed at this point but to move on with the changes, else it will be dramatic because you do not let go of the past, and still stays there. The only way to move to a higher dimension and level of consciousness is now embracing this love energy sweeping the whole universe come 2012.


Regards
Oscar

How to Change Your Destiny for 2012 with Vedic Astrology

There are times when we look upon the sky and wonder, how big is the universe? Why do we as human exists? What are the purpose of our existence? Are we born just to go through sufferings and pains? Are we born because we have some unfulfilled missions? Are we born just for the sake of it?

 

As the world evolve and the plane of human consciousness is being accessed at a faster rate than ever, people are starting to fall back to the spiritual plane to seek within themselves. We look for answers. We go back to the basics. We go back searching for our roots.

People has always been fascinated by psychics, seers, mystics, or anyone that have a claim that they are able to see the future. People want to know what is in stored for them, too eager to know the results, want to be prepared and a whole lots of reasons just to see or have a glimps of the future.

So let me reveal to you the art of vedic astrology, in a scientific way that will debunk all the myths and fantasies others are making you believe, traditional beliefs that are now nonsense or irrevelant in this modern time and what is perceived as non-astrology.

How to change your Destiny for 2012 with Vedic Astrology is a 1 day seminar to address these questions, topped it up with true case files and a prediction clinic for what is in store for you for the year 2012. We will also reveal to you one of the most simple and easy to learn prediction technique practiced in Vedic Astrology and also on how you can apply these skills after completing this 1 day course.

Register with payment now before December 2011 to enjoy a special rate of RM92 per person and RM88 for 2 persons and above. After which the normal price rated at RM128 by January 2012 will stays. Fees paid are inclusive of course materials and 2 tea breaks.

* you can download the registration form and fill it up, and scan/email back to us.
* in order to participate in the prediction clinic, accurate birth details are required. (date, time and place of birth e.g; 19th May 1978, 20.45pm, Subang Jaya Selangor)

For more information, please visit our website at www.thesoulcircles.net or email to o_scarlai@yahoo.com. You can also contact Oscar at 0166728068.