Best thing in life for introvert like me? Solitude and blessings

Being alone and doing things in my own solitude...has been almost a 3 years routine for me. Hence my brain is upside down at times...can't really differentiate between hallucinations or imaginations or fantasy..or if it's real. tried astral projection on a friend...sometimes accurate, sometimes there's doubt. but i did manage to see. well well...i got lots of blessings. one of it is a divine blessings. i see stars. the feeling is much better than if u take weed or have orgasm...haha... but who's that...i've no idea. probably some long lost friends or spirits that have been following me for a few past lives. a halfway failed scholar...one dat died at meditation...this life am seeking to continue and complete...if it takes my whole life again..so be it! i just need some solitude again. arranging to put down everything, settle most of the damn things and then rent out my stall business so i can do my other stuffs and hopefully...just once...go to places that i wanted to go. :)

Soul Circles website ready !

At last at last...i've finally got the website ready. it's at www.astrologymuses.com . frankly speaking, i haf no knowledge in html and such but heh... macromedia was really awesome. I can haf it done. but it was...damn.. crazy! cuz i was taking such a long time to do it. I made this website twice, because the first one, i was not satisfied at all. this one now is better. hope i can make it better in future. And YeS! am so happy i can stop using my blog here to market those classes. this blog is meant for my own ranting! :P

oh yeah. sounds so stupid too. the company is soul circles, but the website is astrologymuses... yeah..i was in a haste.. i wanna use astrologymuses , i like da word muse...then ...later i like soul circles...so u see, accidents happen..the company name and the website name don't jive...*gloom* aieh...nvm la...am still the same :P

now pls tell all ur frens that i've change to astrologymuses.com! this blog is saved for me to use explosive language okie :)

*grin* once am done with this..i will take another good freaking 3 months to set up my another event website...if i have the time.

Destiny, nature,universe is breathtaking...my past lives in dream

" this is a post not meant for anyone. it's just a post which am pouring out to my heart content. it's pretty long with text. you will be bored if u read it." this bloody few months i saw myself still have unwavering passion for astrology, for knowledge and such. but what the hell...where it leads to? skipping meals, dodging meet ups and spending most of the time in my own room thinking and thinking. what happened in these few months is unbelievable. more of like..fulfilling a certain destiny. what? teaching? no way...i have never done public speaking. but then...now am teaching. not much fun when u have to do it alone. but it's part of my chart. study ur own chart. master always say. scrutinize...where does this provision come from? healer? healing? and it unveiled rite b4 my eyes. talk to the nature , tell the universe and universe will respond. and yeah, it really did respond. or is it what i've attracted myself to? am so not sure anymore. if i don't respond to nature, it really did force and grab. but when i relented and let god, everything take care of itself. a powerful combination of breakage, a few minor details and events, unfold and not noticed but realized after study of the chart. pluto taking away the unnecessary burdens to let me start anew. dasa period indicates cleansing. transits combinations cut off all links of negativity to fulfill the conditions. the key to the universe? the chart. now there's a dream that came to me last 2 or 3 weeks ago am not sure. and it came 3 times, 2 days in a row, and a day break and then came again. (see...3,2,1). who da hell is that fella? i've no idea. he could be from the past or from the future or from another place. but he sure disturbed me alot. first dream, he was sitting at my car passenger's seat. smiling, he sure is indian cuz his skin is dark and can see his white beautiful teeth. i asked, who are u? why sitting in my car? do i know u? and he smiled, saying his name is dunno what but got rama there. so i'll just hmm....call him mr rama now. then he told me, he works in construction. and i asked which type? suddenly i felt i was so interested to know of his work or business. then he said, am soooo happy with my chart because the chart says am wealthy and many ppl will bow to me. then i said, oooh..issit ketu in 10th ? millionaire ah? and he said...u have learnt astrology with 123. but astrology is not just 123. it can be 321. and from 123 and 321 it can be infinite and a lot more. i woke up abruptly in my car. sweating and felt a deep ' sorrowful ' feeling in myself. and the first thing i utter...'damn...what a dream. this makes me need to study more loh. makes me more busy.' "stressed". could be am too stressed. so i can't sleep. i try to buy the numbers. 1239. 3219. 1230.3210.0123.0321.9123.9321. damn. i didn't get the numbers, but they sure came out, last week 1230 and 9123, i think in toto and pmp. but anyway... later in the day, i was quite obsessed with the 123 and 321. i study again. yes...there is something which i've missed, there's 123 and there's 321 in the charts. and at the same time, the janma rasi suddenly seems so nice to use together with the rasi. and i then find out more and more about the moon and expand my normal usage of it. then , the next night... i dreamed again. this time, this fella also 'expanded'. he made me cycle to klang to find him.made me so tired. he was staying in a very nice 'palace' looking house. when i stepped in, it looks like bollywood to me. the house inside was kinda dim, the floor is wooden, the furnitures looks like damn damn damn old. and i swear his 'library' is made of something like a plank but have lots of books so i don't really know how it can stand the weight. and it is shiny shiny golden color. just when i wanted to pull out a book from it, i heard a voice. 'yes master' . uuitt? i saw a small hermit like man serving tea to him..that mr rama...just that this time i saw his whole body...so so so big and fat..i think his one thigh is my two thigh add together (still bigger) . i got scared. how come this fat fella can sit in my car that day. am sure my car seat will not be big enough. then i was laughing myself because i was ridiculing on his size in my car. and he ask me to come over. i went to him, he was in a room, when i stepped into the room...holy shit! okie...this is real palace. but i never seen a palace before but through books, i take it as palace. the servant is still serving him, attending to him at his feet. and he asked...how is ur 123 study? i was...feeling...dejavu..this better be just a dream...am scared..are u harming me? "err...who are u? what issit with this 123?" he said, u sure are forgetful! his face and everything looks scornful. it is a look of despise and made me unworthy. i grew more afraid...what am i suppose to remember? astrology 123?? and he said...maybe this will make u remember back. and yes...he passed me a technique in reading the chart which i never see before. and i woke up at 3am, my maid shook me up because i was talking in sleep she said. the next day, i tried to read my own chart with what he had taught. darn...what? wahahaha...i forgot. maybe it will come back again, latent inside the unconscious. but i don't know. i seriously forgot. the day passed, after my few attempts to remember back the 'lesson in dream'. i felt probably am really just dreaming. nothing to verify. the lesson that i learn in that dream, the technique to me is like...there's a big part of it which i've forgotten that is why i can't do anything conclusive with it. i really forgot. it's like, it came to me with just 1 and 3, there's 2 missing and the infinite part of it missing as well. so what da hell...i grew fed up. calls from my frens were ignored because i was too tired to answer. i was fed up too i went out without carrying my bag which i used to because i don't want to look at charts anymore. after two days, this time i dreamed again. and it is by now , the last dream till today. in that dream, i recognized that mr rama voice again. this time i don't see him. but i was standing in darkness, with a lot of 'glowing charts' under my feet. i was like ...swearing at him this time saying, what's with all these? am tired!!! i don't want to read! and the more i got angry, the more the piles grow. i was going to be buried with those charts, i thought to myself. when it's almost waist high, he start talking and the voice seems like surrounding my ears. " read it like this! "came a chart glowing with a blinding light, or should i say , it feels more like flying to my face. i shield my face. then came a few more flying to me. and i shield again. "hey that's rude and crazy! come on...we can talk properly , don't throw at me!" and he said..."no... there's no time. u have to read these charts flying" and more and more charts kept flying over. i tried to move, but i can't. then, i saw one of the chart with a certain configuration that i am familiar with, and that certain configuration was in bold form. i suddenly 'register' and acknowledge that chart configuration. but before i can say anything, the voice said, yes that's it, you got it! the pile seems to reduced abit, and i continue to find those flying charts with bold text and graphics and when i mentally acknowledge it, the pile reduce again. this time, those flying charts changed color. damn...another level? it's like those video games! read it like this..look behind there! look! look in front! look sideway! there's more to it! u can do it upside down too! see! remember this pillar? see this?! look deeper! did u see that?! remember! and i woke up...felt eerie and exhausted. but it gave me lots of things to ponder upon. lot of things. my brain is fucking exploding. integration. application. accessibility. reborn. after the dream...the puzzle seems to surface more and more. a student who has a master teacher as a fren and biz partner, introduce me to reiki for healing. when he introduced her to me, he did it out of kind consideration too and mentioned...this is special, don't know what destiny has in store but come on, give it a try. i am really thankful to him. reiki, another ancient model for healing, the facts of it is astonishing. even the spirituality of it answer some of my questions. and as i walk on destiny, the events keep unfolded rite before me. i got initiated to it! bless is she that she do it out of a selfless and sharing self..imparting the knowledge for a better world. her generous way sees my own provision surfaced. messengers and the souls involved, when checked upon their charts with my own, we do have a certain past crossing. or in short, we do cross path in past life. but i don't know what... *shrug*. after the initiation, the master teacher said she thinks i've been doing this since past life. I was intrigued again... past life?? but i can't verify nor are we suppose to remember past life...for it's past. it's now that should be taken care of. during the week, i also went to Maha Vihara temple for the metta meditation. sad to say..tonite am suppose to go too but i overslept. :P bad case of oversleeping. i will pledge to go next week!! they passed a cd to me, containing a big big big monster printer ink eater pdf format book . but u see, i like to touch and feel..so i go and print out everything. while flipping through it, there's a lot of graphics depicting the meditation postures and everything. sigh...dejavu feeling came again. it feels like i have done those postures. maybe like when i was young or in another life. thinking back, i had been doing manifestation type of meditation, just that when i was younger that time, i have no idea what it's called. now think back...maybe i can start documenting back and start all over again. or should i call it planning? or drafting of plans? or goal realization? or law of attraction? so many terms and names to it...aigh. which is which? i just know that when i was contemplating, and then start doing my goals and plans for my income that time, my daily income from the works was 500-800 a day. and i gambled it all away in less than 6 months. wahahahaha... regret but good experience for a young me. now am at the poverty line! (with inflation, the gov now says ppl with less than 2k income a month is poor) sigh...but ok... i pledge to take responsibility for all my doings and karma and pledge to reduce and right what is wrong in all my undertakings. to all those that i have crossed path, that i have hurt or have been hurt, to all those beings and souls from all directions that i have owe or have been owe, or i have offended or have been offended, and to those who are sufferings and not, to the sick, to the poor, to the wealthy, to everything and every soul and attachment that i have not acknowledge or have acknowledge but still in ignorance... i wish you well, happy and prosperous! may u be blessed with infinite blessings. suddenly...it seems so... nice :) macam syok sendiri. but it feels better. while am still thinking bout how to market my new venture...thinking bout all aspects to it...out of the blue...came masters to help me out. out of the blue...came people wanting to plant the seeds with me... today, i met with a certain master and gave me a very unique experience and a crucial lesson that i have been lacking. he was the essence of the 123 dream too. then at nite, my bro called to say...my mom's old friend who is an astrologer, dreamed of my mom...pulled out my chart to read and contact my bro to tell him she knows what am doing and going through. she drummed into him, no matter what, call me and ask me to contact her. she is willing to teach me to fulfill my mom wishes. difficult period...hero friends come and offer help to me in whatever way it is. nature does not let me fall down to the lowest. probably need me to go tru it and find the lessons behind the lessons. what i've put to the universe...it sure is responding in her own unique way unfailingly. maybe i should not be too worried or stressed out after all. destiny will run its course and put everything in place...including my own jigsaw puzzle. charts reading are still flying around me...i've put to experiment again with a friend, tracking love and relationships using the only technique that i've got from the dream. still need to refine and research...probably that is why it never came to me as easy as 123.

New astrology classes every weekend

Hi everyone,
For the mean time, we will have new classes every sat and sun 4-6pm for astrology. Coming August will have more activities so pls come back for more updates!

update: still working on the website (grumble grumble...very slow)
the last week class was really interesting, the students were interesting as well :P
did they manage to read their own chart? hopefully past students will feedback to me via
the chat box

now devising some plans for the students to be able to practice their skill and at the same
can also earn and learn. that will be great in view of the economy slowdown right?

when the website is done around july or august, the cost of the classes and prices will be revised. some will be reduced, some will be at a higher price. especially those that are running now because i have not put in a proper pricing to it and pretty hard to cover my costs! well well...u see, beside everything rises that is one of the factor, (my petrol consumption is a bloody 50 bucks for 3 days...i don't eat also have to let the car eat le...getting more thin and thin like this) comparing to other courses at other place, here is still the cheapest. so even if i revise the prices, don't worry, it will still be affordable. so please take the advantage now before the price is being revised!

Signing off today morning !
Oscar

14th June 2008 vedic astrology class is on!

Dear everyone, Class for vedic astrology for beginners is on this coming saturday 14th June , and sunday 15th june from 4pm to 6pm. Then for the following week saturday 21st and sunday 22nd is at 7pm-9pm for those who attend this 14th class. This way, every week i can have new students at 4pm-6pm. For new visitors and students, I apologize for the inconvenience of this blog, as even to me, it seems a little messy and full of 'marketing purpose' but i've no choice. But on a happy note, i am getting the website ready just for these classes and trainings. Last week, i have an impromptu class on meditation with a student as guinea pig so that i can structure my upcoming meditation class properly. Exciting...i hope we can grow spiritually and materially together in our journey! For other informations on the classes and the money guarantee back policy, please scroll back to previous posts. I will get the website done soon so you will be able to read a more structured page soon. And then i can use back this blog for my own rantings! :) PS: Feel free to chat on the chatbox i provided :) And by the way, I won't be managing Institute of Astrological Science anymore as the Master is still not well, I'll just use back my own company name to safe guard both parties interest. So from now on, this is Soul Circles Enterprise, a company doing trainings and seminars for spirituality, metaphysics and astrology. Come back for newer updates or for the new upcoming website soon! Regards, Oscar 016 220 8184

Upcoming Classes on 14th June 2008

I need a rest to regain my composure! Have been hectic with my works and all, and have a few plans ready to roll and before that have to do some necessary legality stuffs. The upcoming classes will be on 14th-15th June 2008 week 1 from 4pm to 6pm, and week 2 from 7pm to 9pm. This means, starting 14th june onwards, i'll be teaching new classes on saturdays and sundays 4pm to 6pm. If you have attended the first week at 4pm-6pm, the following week you should come at 7pm-9pm. In other words, 4pm-6pm is new classes, 7pm-9pm is the last two classes. Please register your seat to 016 220 8184 or email me at o_scarlai@yahoo.com *If you are bringing in 2 friends as well, I can offer you a small discount! And if you come in a group of 8 and above, group discount is available. So gather your friends and email me for the group discount deal!* Money back guarantee still applies. please see the previous or older post for that.

Some new changes coming up soon

There'll be some new changes coming up which I hope I can implement soon, like changing this website host to a dot com because this platform is limited. I wish to section this website , one entirely for upcoming classes schedule, and another section for the students as a research and discussion area and one more section for astrology musing. blogspot here is limited. and also my web building skill is limited too so gotta take some time!

Currently i've put in a chatbox on the side bar if u notice, this is for anyone wanna leave a message or comments or testimonial, and even questions or anything abt astrology or just a friendly chat if you want to. looks convenient to me, but not sure yet if it will compliment yours. but can give it a try :)

coming classes is on this week 31st may 2008! i am currently trying to make the schedule to this :-- as in students coming in for the first week at early 4-6pm and then the next week 7-9pm. hopefully new students will be able to make the shift as well, because i've not yet redesign or put in to the announcement. previous students who want to come for refreshers can check with me on the latest schedules. It is encouraged for previous students to come for refreshers so that they won't let their new found knowledge go to waste. and here's a tip, every new class, whenever there are new cases and even questions, there is a chance to learn new things out of the notes that you are holding! not that am holding on to the knowledge and not let it all out, but there are many things which won't be covered for time sake, but when the time comes and someone pop up the question or a live chart is given, there will be certain configuration that i need to point out when fine tuning your predictions, that's when you will learn more and more.
In this class, it's not how long you've spent on theories or books, but how many live charts you have read. The more you do it hands-on, the more faster you can do predictions!

And hopefully by next month or july, i'll be able to do extra classes in the morning of weekends as well or add in more classes for weekday nights! And around the end of the year, hopefully my plans to teach meditation for free or a small fee will be realised. This too depends on some factors so come back always for updates!

Regards
Oscar

Money Back Guarantee!

Of late, I have been getting calls from potential clients in regard to the astrology classes that I've been giving for the past one month. Some have even considered consultations which I have been offering for the past one year.
The usual response, or the conclusion that they have made is..."What? A Chinese little girl giving classes on Indian/Vedic Astrology? Seriously?" (I can't help it but to laugh)

Okie, my voice might sound like a little girl to you, and you can say it's quite sweet :) . But please don't let my voice fool you...am of a mature legal age "big smile". On top of that, thou my physical / bodily age might still be young in your context, but my soul is not! Take a look at FengShui Master Joey Yap, he is only 30 years old and what achievement! But well, compare not , because we're different unique person alltogether.

In various religious scriptures and such, it had been telling us to acquire knowledge to no matter where it is. Besides that, I urge you not to be concerned too much about who is teaching or what colour/age/race/creed/gender that i am or whether I have a humourous style of presenting or a sombre style that can make you fall asleep right in front of me, but the essence of which I can deliver to you and be able to teach you about Vedic Astrology. The main objective at the end of the class is for you to be able to read your own chart and slowly rediscover Vedic Astrology in another light.

I will and I can deliver what I promise and I see this as a mutual benefit. I can guide you if you are new and have a burning desire to learn, and your little investment for my time is for me to continue my own destiny in the pursuit of higher knowledge, where in return I will give back higher knowledge to the society. It's a mutual chain.

Besides that, we all know, nobody can claim to know everything in this world. Truth will be truth if it is tested and experienced. You could even be my Master in some field that I don't know of and I humbly admit that I still have a lot to learn in Life. Therefore, I would like to extend a friendly hand so that we can discover the right path together and help each other on the way.

To protect your utmost importance of your investment for my time in giving you this knowledge, I am offering anyone joining the next classes a "Money Back Guarantee" .

The Terms n Conditions
I will refund you your full payment upon completion of the classes if you indicate that you have got nothing to learn or benefit from the classes, which is you can't read your own chart even after I have taught you how in or out of the class. I will not question your ability but will value your honest feedback on why you fail to learn something. Last but not least, you get to keep the copyrighted course materials for your own reference!

Good deal? So come and seek me...and I will give you what you are searching for!

Basic Vedic Astrology next class 24th May 2008

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Are you an astrologer or prophet of impeding dooms day ?

Most of the time, people only look for solutions or answers when they are in dire need in a problematic situation. whatever help or solutions that are offered will be grab without thinking much as long as it works. when in situations like this, if the fella did not stop to think twice whether it is worth it or not, he will make a wrong move that he will regret. the problem become a bigger problem. take example of a person , addicted to gambling . when in dire need, he will turn to the loan sharks for fast cash delivery/approval. he did not stop to think twice, because that solution is what feed his need, fast. this solution at the same time , give him temporary relief of material pain, but at the same time, plunge him into a deeper bigger mess. whoever are involved or is in his circle, will be affected or pull into a karmic event. so, putting it in simpler form, most of the time, people most probably will only think of looking for an astrologer when they are in a dire need. be it for love issue, financial issue, career issue etc. most of the time, people will just live their life as it is without an astrologer. or even after meeting an astrologer, they will forget about what had been said after the meeting. My question is why? how come like this? what is their perception towards an astrologer? some people dare not go to an astrologer because of fear . the fear of predictions coming true, prefering to take it as it comes or let nature runs her course. so this falls back to the astrologer. are astrologers nowadays using the scare tactics? are astrologers nowadays using psychology to manipulate a seeker's emotional intelligence? "tomorrow you are going to meet with an accident and you will be a gone case! prepare your funeral now! unless you get this special gem/amulet/ritual (read:spend more more more money) and this disaster can go away" okay...a little dramatic, but this is a very real situation happening and most of my clients has this perception and some, experienced for themselves. what is more blessed than having a module/system that can give you a foresight of what is going to happen in your life and offer you solutions based on your own chart? what is more divine than learning about yourself and finding out what is it that your soul need to learn before flying off to another plane? and what is more efficient having astrology as your sacred tool to find what you want, right what have been wrong and change what can be changed? so what are you afraid of? this then must falls back to the astrologer again. is the astrologer too enterprising? until whatever problems also can be settled by wearing ten gemstones on your ten fingers? has the astrologer been holding something back so that you will be more and more curious and would not mind forking out more to know the entire predictions without solutions yet? (solution will be another package of crystals/gemstones/poojas/rituals/fengshui/change name/clairvoyance/pyschic etc). This will kill this divine profession slowly and surely. if you have been practicing astrology and reaping the rewards/monetary benefits tremendously by being dishonest, you are no different than a leech, leeching on this doom soul. you will have no difference with a conman too. What goes around will come around. Astrology is a subject of truth. it never lies. only the one understanding it can have the tendency to manipulate truth for his/her selfish gain. Astrology is a tool for us to use for our own good. it can also be one of The Way to truth if we see it spiritually. if we are practitioner of truth, then we should not be dishonest. double it up with loving kindness, we actually can make astrology a better profession, especially vedic astrology since vedic astrology is more to predictive system. how? by not always being a dooms day astrologer. if you see negativity in the chart, use your position and trust given by the customer to guide the customer back to the right path. if your customer has to undergo the karmic event, teach your customer how to fulfill the condition and teach your customer to look on the positive side. teach them how to activate the positivity. if you have to recommend a gemstone, make sure it is something your customer agreed to, not being forced upon or duped into it. be an astrologer that brings good news to people, be an astrologer who has something nice to say even in the midst of ugly truth. positive back all your negative keywords. as it is, negative keywords are for your customers to know what will happen, what challenges they are going to face and ,what will be their karmic event coming. positive keywords are the solutions. try it! save our own profession. be an astrologer of good will and hope. if i have to hurt, i rather hurt with truth. let your customer walk out of that consultation room with renew faith, hope and courage to face their problem and top it up with workable solutions. You will start to enjoy and reap more satisfaction other than that worthless few hundred bucks you just made. it will even give you good fruits for your next life for helping and reconnecting your humanitarian touch. and best of all, you will save Astrology from misunderstandings and bad perceptions.